Patience, Self-care, and the Eclipse

The eclipse this year is in the same zodiac sign as last years eclipse in April. Virgos are particular, organized and meticulous. Everything is tracked on spreadsheets, checklists, calendars with reminder alarms to keep scheduled. What I noticed happened horribly wrong with my plans was I got distracted before tracking. Finding the good in this week has been tough but I have it on my checklist. I wake up grateful, spend time with my dog, take my vitamins, and follow my daily routine. Sometimes. I planned to start running, but my hips hurt, so I ended up at the dog park watching my puppy play. I listened to the ocean waves and knew I needed to move, but I ignored it. A couple of hours later, during my first Uber ride, I felt angry with myself. No one will hire me, my family doesn’t understand me, and I’m in a negative mindset. Then my phone dings with the name “Patience.” I laugh to myself, “I’ll come pick you up, Patience.”

I pick up a short, excited woman named Patience from Walgreens who is eager to share about her first “adult purchase.” As we talk, she asks about my life and career, prompting me to reflect on my journey with Uber and my desire to leave Idaho. When she inquires about my self-care, I realize I’ve neglected it, despite recognizing its importance. Patience encourages me to consider caregiving, affirming my intelligence and suggesting I focus on myself first. After our conversation, I feel a wave of exhaustion and realize I needed that interaction, ultimately sleeping for ten hours afterward.

The caveat to this years eclipse is Pisces in mercury retrograde. I read somewhere that where Virgo in mercury likes spreadsheets, Pisces likes watercolors and finger painted symbols. I believe this wave of exhaustion is correlated with Piscean energy, because I had this dream all of America was leaving the continent. They were all getting on boats, and I was watching it on a news update from a tv screen in an insane asylum. All I could think about was “where is my dog”. I woke up so grateful to be ok.